29/9/2009

End of sept'09.....still hanging around, the few applications no repond at all, as aspected !very very worried..no $$$ to pay car intsalment n my own insurance priemium !
last nite i asked N whether he still can handle alone (one income) he juz kept quiet, i feel so sad, knowing he has a lot of pressure now!!!!!
thinking of start up small business but not no experience in business plus no fund..very lost, i noticed that i didn't smile or laugh out loud lately..i can feel my face is getting 'harden' juz like 'smile' or 'laugh' is a very difficulty thing to do now !

feeling sad sad sad !!! almost 3 mths he didnt contanct me!!! wats wrong again???? its a habit for him ?? in good mood , can treat me very of good, next min. can change n treat treat me like a stranger?!!

15/9/09

September, oledi half of a mth gone...still hanging around. feel very uneasy n worried too!!
last nite, Noel told me his nephew will put on with us for time being... i got so mad!!!
why he still never learn a lesson, past few years his elder sis' children come n stay with us, we hv very bad experience n bad impression them now!!! noel forgot abt all this oledi?! now his 5th sis said want to put his son wt us until he find a room!!!! wat a stupid excusess!!!! noel' sis (all of them) alwiz like to show face to me, now their children work in KL expect me to HELP ??!! NO WAY !!